(I'm not gonna have a perfect flow for that one, I don't really want to)


I would walk in the hallway
With a penny and a razor blade
Packed up inside my pocket
Hands cut, trying to forget
I still rely on pain
To get through the days
I would hurt myself
Trying not to faint
I would be surprised to find myself
Doing it another time, again
And it comes and goes like a bad refrain
Like a train, like the rain
It hasn't always been like this
There are some steps I missed
They were missing since forever
Like when I began seeing shit I would never ever ever ever have thought of.

And I remember looking at a slip knot
I remember what I thought
Killing myself has always been in the back of my mind
Though the back of my mind is a mess I can't sort out
There always seems to be something good
That ends up crushed in front of you
I sometimes wonder what my life would have been
If I had been a normal kid
Swinging as a child, in a park
With a loving mom, and a loving dad
No gun under the bed
No gun on our heads
No daddy's belt
No voices in my head
Echoing in the void
yeah

Someone contacted me through my instagram
He said he could make me famous fir a hundred dollars
I knew it was a lie
But I hadn't enough money, that was when I was in the street
I remember spending the whole day staring at my feet
I make my own beats with saima
I still don't know why he believes me
I said "I'm gonna pay you, I promise"
He declined the offer and pressed recording
And I already broke a mic because of my screaming
I hope I'll have an audience, I'm dreaming
My phone is never ringing, alone on twitter
The lack of movement triggers my anger
I text my mom everyday telling her it's gonna be fine
Though I do not believe that
And in the "What am I doing" song I talk about suicide
That girl in my class who died
From her own hands, her own veins
I miss you, I miss you, damn... damn...

And in the "What am I doing" song I talk about suicide
That girl in my class who died
From her own hands, her own veins
I miss you, I miss you, damn ! damn !
And fuck success I just want fame
Be controversial to pay your bills
People who tell the truth get downhill
And I hope people will remember my name
I should lie yeah, I should lie
But I don't know if I could
I hope you listen to me label
I hope you think about me label
I'm everything you need label
I'm everything you'll ever be label
Make me famous, daily life is a prison
I hate when my life is a fucking prism
I made all the wrong decisions
Don't become me, fucking listen
Gonna be the allegory of my descent